Enough..

Ever just have enough of ... well, everything? Ever just have a few days in a row where everything seems to just go wrong or tick you off? Welcome to my weekend. If it wasn't enough that my car light went out, or my mom decided to yell all day for no reason, or that I have an interview tomorrow and I'm praying I get the job, but I have to deal with SL too. This is a post about the girl behind Sevra, the kitten you all adore, and about Sevra, who is quite honestly me with ears.

I'm tired of being alone. It's funny, they advertise SL as an escape from your real life... a means of starting a "fresh new life". Well, ironically, all SL seems to be is a mirror of what you already have in your real life. The avi you are controlling IS you. The problems you have in real life are often reflected too in SL, except you have to deal with the problems of the internet along with it. For example, my last "wife" was a MAN. YES, it was very pleasant to learn one day that the girl that I decided to spend every day with online had something between his legs.. FUN. How about the fact that every person I seem to meet online wants a quick fuck or a quick cuddle and then that's it.. you are no longer a priority in their lives. It's funny, I have a friends list YARDS long and each night I'm alone at my house. Each night the same old girls who just want a means of rubbing off IM me. Well I'm sick of it.

I hope there are people out there who can understand what I'm talking about. I hope there are people out there like me who hear crap from people everyday like "your so great, your so pretty, your so wonderful" and yet where does it get you? Unemployed, no friends, surrounded by some seriously horny people who just need to get a life and learn the definition of what a FRIEND really is.

So for all you people out there like me, I salute you. This is to everyone who is just simply ticked off about everyone around her and wants to start a new. This is to everyone who came to SL to get just that... a second life, and ended up with a damn near carbon copy of what she already had. I wish people would take other's feelings into account. I wish someone gave a shit when someone left a room and said "hey, where did Sevra go?". I wish someone would IM me when I did leave and offer to come to see if I'm ok. But no, its too much for people. I give and give and give to everyone around me and I don't think I'm being too selfish to just ask for something/someone for myself. Is it so wrong to just want something in your own life as some sort of reward for everything you do all day to make everyone smile through their lives as you cry through yours? Is it wrong to just as for a tiny PIECE of that.. just a piece.

Look deep inside your heart and ask yourself how many TRUE friends.. ie: people who would be there for you at a drop of a hat, would be there for you when you need them... depressing how small that number is isn't it? How many people are tooted as being so great and come home (in both realities) by themselves with no one to greet them when they come through the door? If you care about someone like a friend, remember to BE one back. Remember that sometimes , some people just need a hug.. any sign to know that there is SOMEONE willing to take 5 minutes out of their busy day, to STOP what they are doing to see if you need to know your important... just for a minute.

If you don't like the post, tough. I am really quite tired of trying to make everyone smile but me in my life. If you know how I feel, go ahead and just give a nice scream to release that frustration 'cuase I know how you feel girlfriend!

Zoya

This will be a short post, but I had yet to make one in a few weeks. Been busy busy. Recently made a great new friend named Zoya. Shes very loving and caring, and is a joy to be around. I really am glad that all the fluke occurrences for us to be brought together <.< >.> in more ways than one ^.^; happened the way they did. I'll post more as I get to know her better, and this will hopefully start to pick up once again.

Ear Fetish

It's always funny how even in the mist of troubles, family, friends, and lovers can make everything that was once on your mind melt away into oblivion. My family had stepped out for the day. Most of my friends were unreachable, but there was one, one friend and lover I hold so dear to my heart that heard my lonely mews: Kat.

Kat is an adorable little neko with a disproportionally long tail and matching black ears. My ears perked up as I heard her come into my room and, much to her surprise, was greeted by a pounce and hug, smothered both ways with licks on each other's noses. Kat is a very close girl to me. I first met her through my friend Maya, and had troubles feeling myself around her at first. However, once the ice was broken, Kat and I have been inseparable. Every time she comes my way I light up in happiness and joy no matter how the rest of my day was.

My loving licks moved downward, repeatedly licking her sweet soft lips. So lost in my greeting to her, was quite caught off guard when her lips parted and her tongue licked mine in return. Her tongue continued to caress my lips until I playfully snatched her tongue with my lips, followed by a giggle of accomplishment. However, my victory was short lived as her tongue wiggled loose only to lick my lips again while her hands tickled my sides in revenge. Letting out a shriek of shock from the tickles, I quickly tried to scamper away only to be tackled on the couch nearby. Watching her come to tickle me once more, my tail quickly wrapped around her waist and plopped her besides me on the couch.

The laughter died down as we layed besides each other, staring into each other's eyes. Her tongue came once more, although unexpectedly on my cheek for grooming. Quite taken by surprise, my eyes close non-the-less as I blush a bit under my light tan fur, mumbling sweet mews as her tongue continues to caress me. A faint "I love you" mumbled from her kisses as suddenly her kisses quickly moved upward, meeting with my ear.

Twitching in bliss, a long mew escaped my lips as shivers ran up and down my spine. Thinking my luck couldn't have gotten better, a warm wetness worked its way into my ear; her tongue had begun to slowly work its way to the center. I could tell Kat suddenly remembered this was my spot from my reaction, as her face started to press into my ear, incidentally pushing me into her chest. Her chest is perfect for her frame. Her smooth skin is very soft and white, feeling good to the touch against my fur. My ear is filled with the sounds of her purring, as my tongue instinctively started to lick the tops of her breasts. Her lips suddenly parted from my ear and in an instant she took off her top, almost reading my mind. Hard and erect, her nipples were almost mesmerizing to look at. To show her thanks for my ear which her lips quickly came back to, my mouth softly encompassed her nipple... my tongue soon to follow, working in slow circles around the light peach mound.

Just laying with each other, giving each other such simple kisses and licks, was enough to make us both feel like time had stopped. We wished we could continue the loving caresses forever as we melted into each other's arms, engulfed in our snuggles. The room filled with soft mews and moans as we continued to pour our hearts into each lick and kiss to the other neko before us.

However, after some time something didn't settle right with me. I wanted to show her what all she had done for me, and remind her of what I had done to her before. Kat is very similar to me, even in her sexual desires. Sadly, before me, not many fulfilled one of the few things that truly drove her wild; her ear. Just like with me, when her ear was touched, nothing else mattered, and every nerve and brain cell concentrated on the feelings in that spot as if it were her lower lips themselves being kissed. I quickly rose up and climbed on top of the adorable kitten I had grown to love so much. Unwilling to let my ear escape, her teeth clutched onto it wanting to still show me her love. Mewing in soft protest, Kat let my ear go and watched as I crawled atop her, my lips going straight to her ear. As my mouth took the edge of her ear inside it, she bit softly down on her lower lip. Watching my breasts jiggle above her, she quickly released her lip and leaned up to snatch my nipple, nibbling and licking them with all the attention she could muster away from her ear.

The licking on her ear got more intense as I began to work my tongue in slow spirals in and out. Encouraged by her mews muffled by my nipple, I started to speed up my spirals occasionally stopping to suck along the ear's outer rim. Her body slithering and wiggling below me, almost dancing in joy and pure bliss by the soft wet attack that had befallen her ear. Her ear twitched about, my tongue having to play catch with it, sometimes pressing my lips down on the edge to keep it still. Not being able to hold it any longer, my free hands pushed our bottoms down. Grasping her ear with my lips so not so let it go, I tried desperately to kick my bottoms off, finally watching them plummet to the floor. My legs quickly straddled hers, kneeling back down to press my face again to her ear as my moist lower lips pressed against hers.

Mews and moans fill the air as my hips started to press onto her, our clits hitting with each quick pass. Our sweet juices gradually lubricating our passes, making each one quicker and more intense than the last. Her moans and pleads escalated, begging me not to stop as my tongue darted deeper in and out of her ear. Her body below me started to squirm harder than before, letting out a moan as my lower lips felt warm juices begin to cover them. However, my hips and tongue didn't stop after her climax, and she quickly went back to my chest, only switching nipples in the process. Her pleasure fueling me on, her body under me shaking begging for more. My own lips began to quiver, my muscles tightening, mewing loudly as my tail raised into the air. My lips letting my juices gush onto her lips below, soaking the now broken in couch of mine that was just recently made. The pleasure of the orgasm making my body weak, my arms no longer able to hold myself up as I fell down besides her. However, Kat was far from done, and quickly layed me down on my back, jumping on top of me.

My tongue went back above her head to her other ear, trying to still overcome the weakness of my climax. Licking it over and over trying to moisten it, my licks starting to speed up once more. Her hips rode fast on me, our clits rubbing like never before... our bodies melting as one as our love for each other fueled the passion between us. Her orgasms, like dominoes, topple one after another. Two pass in mere minutes as she looks down at me, not content until I come again. My tongue working like never before on her ear; spirals to thrusts, sucks to edge glides. Her licks all over my chest in a blaze of heat and passion, nothing neat and thought out any longer. The mews intensified, our bodies squirming against each other. In one last burst of bliss we both scream out as we orgasm together, her body collapsing on mine as soon as we're done.

Panting together, we calmed down from out unexpected burst of passion. Just not long ago, perfectly content with simple acts of adoration, now relaxing in each other's arms after the most exhausting sex we had ever had. Fatigue set in fast as our bodies were very worn. I grabbed a blanket from nearby and covered us as we yawned and kissed another. Falling asleep, her on top of me, we drifted together in the world of dreams where we cuddled and snuggled for the rest of time. No other person did I want to be with at that moment. No other soul was in my mind... just Kat, the sweet little neko, who I loved so very much.

A rough day

I had just decorated my new room. I had spent the greater part of my day making my new living space something that would make me feel like I was home. It was a good day. My Mistress had gotten me a new outfit, I got my own room, and I had bought an adorable tiger striped outfit that went so perfectly with my ever so lightly striped fur.

Scampering about happily, I pasted big pictures of all the people I deeply care about. Having not been able to pick a color to paint the wall, I figured making my private living space surrounded by the ones I cared about was all the color in the world I could ever need. Towards the end I was very tired. The furniture had new fabric on it now, there was new flooring, the ceiling was made white, and the walls were finally covered in pictures of my family, friends, lovers, and me ^.^;.

I looked around, taking in a deep breathe at the project I had finished and collapsed on my soft new bed with a soft mew. Looking up, I smiled and laughed at all the images, remembering exactly when, where, why, and with who I took them with. I took a nearby pillow and held it against my chest. Looking down giggling at my new tiger print outfit, happy with the events of the day.

However, something unexpected happened. My lips started to tremble.. my eyes teary... my ears perk up hoping there is someone nearby to hold, but there is not. I cry silently as I remember the faces not pictured on the walls. The people I once called family and friends, who I never thought would leave by my side. Warm tears ran down my soft fur on my face. Not even trying to cry, not blinking, the tears just simply fell. Wrapping my tail around me tight, I hug onto the pillow that I had on my chest tightly. I remember the people who now probably hate me, for reasons that still puzzle me. I wish maybe I could go back in time and change it all. My ears twitched as my mind started racing. "What if I did this".. "What if I did that", I thought.

Right at my time of weakness, my ears perked up once more at the sound of footsteps in the living room. A familiar scent was near that I knew all to well, and I jumped out of my bed to try to close the door. Scampering quickly to catch the door before she came, I ran my face straight into the chest of the one I was trying to not show my weakness to.. my loved Cy..plopping backwards on the ground after the impact. Already crying, my cries only escalated as now even my rump hurt. Curled up on the floor mewing in sadness, Cy scooped me up in her arms, laying me back down in my bed, with her besides me. Shushing me calmly, her face in worry as to why my orange eyes were so clouded with tears. Looking up at her, I whimpered soft mews explaining the troubles on my mind as she held me gently in her arms. All of my worries seemed to float away as she reminded me that sometimes in life doors close. However, like meeting her, new ones open right afterwords. Her soft thumb rubbed on my furry cheek, trying her best to dry them. My cries died down into soft sniffles, holding her as she spoke to me, her voice being one of the few that I always knew would calm me down and make me feel like my true self once again. My tired eye lids were heavy as she talked, tired from a long day of decorating my room so generously given by her. Light turned to darkness as my eyes closed, my mind slowly drifting into dreamland. I was very happy that she was there, not only to calm me down, but to show me that there was nothing wrong with her little kitten, simply the ups in downs of life. I hope that the friends and family that I have tacked up on my walls will never come down. I hope that a picture is never taken down in pain or anger, and that the ones who are dear to me will always be dear in my heart for many more years to come.