Enough..

Ever just have enough of ... well, everything? Ever just have a few days in a row where everything seems to just go wrong or tick you off? Welcome to my weekend. If it wasn't enough that my car light went out, or my mom decided to yell all day for no reason, or that I have an interview tomorrow and I'm praying I get the job, but I have to deal with SL too. This is a post about the girl behind Sevra, the kitten you all adore, and about Sevra, who is quite honestly me with ears.

I'm tired of being alone. It's funny, they advertise SL as an escape from your real life... a means of starting a "fresh new life". Well, ironically, all SL seems to be is a mirror of what you already have in your real life. The avi you are controlling IS you. The problems you have in real life are often reflected too in SL, except you have to deal with the problems of the internet along with it. For example, my last "wife" was a MAN. YES, it was very pleasant to learn one day that the girl that I decided to spend every day with online had something between his legs.. FUN. How about the fact that every person I seem to meet online wants a quick fuck or a quick cuddle and then that's it.. you are no longer a priority in their lives. It's funny, I have a friends list YARDS long and each night I'm alone at my house. Each night the same old girls who just want a means of rubbing off IM me. Well I'm sick of it.

I hope there are people out there who can understand what I'm talking about. I hope there are people out there like me who hear crap from people everyday like "your so great, your so pretty, your so wonderful" and yet where does it get you? Unemployed, no friends, surrounded by some seriously horny people who just need to get a life and learn the definition of what a FRIEND really is.

So for all you people out there like me, I salute you. This is to everyone who is just simply ticked off about everyone around her and wants to start a new. This is to everyone who came to SL to get just that... a second life, and ended up with a damn near carbon copy of what she already had. I wish people would take other's feelings into account. I wish someone gave a shit when someone left a room and said "hey, where did Sevra go?". I wish someone would IM me when I did leave and offer to come to see if I'm ok. But no, its too much for people. I give and give and give to everyone around me and I don't think I'm being too selfish to just ask for something/someone for myself. Is it so wrong to just want something in your own life as some sort of reward for everything you do all day to make everyone smile through their lives as you cry through yours? Is it wrong to just as for a tiny PIECE of that.. just a piece.

Look deep inside your heart and ask yourself how many TRUE friends.. ie: people who would be there for you at a drop of a hat, would be there for you when you need them... depressing how small that number is isn't it? How many people are tooted as being so great and come home (in both realities) by themselves with no one to greet them when they come through the door? If you care about someone like a friend, remember to BE one back. Remember that sometimes , some people just need a hug.. any sign to know that there is SOMEONE willing to take 5 minutes out of their busy day, to STOP what they are doing to see if you need to know your important... just for a minute.

If you don't like the post, tough. I am really quite tired of trying to make everyone smile but me in my life. If you know how I feel, go ahead and just give a nice scream to release that frustration 'cuase I know how you feel girlfriend!